Currently Disney's Beauty and the Beast: The Broadway Musical (Original Broadway Cast Recording) By Alan Menken, Howard Ashman, Tim Rice see related

sunday

so a thought hit me today while driving home from the barnes and nobles at westwood pavilion.  I guess God wants me to find happiness in him alone, to depend solely on him, and nothing else.  Lately, Ive been questioning him about a bf, a somebody I can go to the movies with, I can hold hands with, I can share couch time with.  I wish I can meet someone and just be willing to settle down and say yes to without having any kind of doubt in my heart.  I really wonder how people do it, maybe you're supposed to not think and not feel or maybe I just haven't been lucky enough to meet the guy?  ummm, I think I met him, but I had to let him go ..... it's probably a wise choice to be obedient and fear Lord then to live according to our own desire? it'll probably save us some trouble down the road?  I still remember his words, Jeremiah 29-11, "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, they're plans for good and not for a disaster, to give you a future and a hope."  Such a sweet reminder!    

I think as we grow older, adult world becomes complicated.  I think I used to be complicated and unhappy, so I had to set myself free to uncomplicate some things in my heart and gain some understanding ...... and it did cost me andie, but I think its still worth it, no regrets.  I do miss andie and what we used to share together sometimes, but ..... whats done cant be undone.  I probably do it again if I have to, if I can't live to be true to myself, then it robs away the meaning of life.  And I would hate to see myself living like a coward ..... and sometimes I miss my dallas home too, its such a lovely space, especially neighbor's trees in the backyard, but I learned that good relationships outweights an empty castle ~    

It has only been alittle over 2 months since returning home from nyc, I feel really tired after everything, after all the travelling and all the changes.  I think I must've moved 4 times this year already, once from dallas to nyc, from nyc long island city to nyc upper east side, from nyc to irvine, then from irvine to beverly hills.  Im so done with moving, I'm so not wanting to go anywhere for awhile now, just want to settle in and build a nest. 

There's work tomorrow, I'm actually looking forward to it.  Life's been a little unpredictable in the past 4months that I'm actually craving for some routine, the daily 8:30-5:30pm caged in kind of routine.  I felt I've done awful lot of travelling in the past 2 years, and I'm so ready to just not go anywhere for a long long time.  Im glad this holiday I can just drive home to join my family for thanksgiving and christmas, its such a luxury to not have to fly home for the holiday =)  

Currently Jack and Jill vs. The World By Kelly Rowan, Robert Forster, Charles Martin Smith, Jr. Freddie Prinze, Peter Stebbings see related

This weekend

Katy came to visit this weekend and it was pretty fun.  We walked to beverly dr. to get CPK for lunch on Saturday, it was very yummy, we sat at the patio and had bbq chicken salad and garlic shrimp and mushroom fettuccine.  I had been craving for it for so long, finally got to satisfy the craving .....

Then Katy's friend showed up with a red farrari, he also lives in beverly hills.  We would've been so embarrased if he walked to our table because everyone was looking at his car while he parked on the curb, so thank god he drove away and parked in the parking structure.  Too bad he doesn't look like a red farrari, he looks more like a toyota camry to me.  He's a nice guy though, definitely not attractive physically, but he's got some brain.  I like the fact that he reads and is a gentleman.  I guess a lot of Taiwanese people are rich or they have rich families ... (although I would be more impressed if they earn the gold themselves).  I should've taken a picture of the red farrari despite my little interest in cars.  I don't think Ive ever rode in one or drove one, umm......

Later we went to grab coffee at urth coffee house also on beverly dr, a few steps away from CPK.  The coffee tastes delicious and the pastry was great too.  I think this is where alot of people hang out to have afternoon coffee and tea in beverly hills.  There's also peets coffee, starbucks, and the coffee beans around the corner, competition, competition ~           

work

Is going pretty good so far, I hope it continues to stay this way.  Today I found out that the bosses yell at eachother, my god, I walked into my boss's room only to hear her on the phone with CFO next door raising voices at eachother.  Ive never worked at a company where people yell at eachother in a professional way; you keep your language clean, but you raise your voice, then you give the other person a F*U sign on the other side of the wall.  The CFO is a scary guy, he's in his late thirties or early forties maybe, and he wears tight jeans, maybe thats the beverly hills-hollywood style.  He's the reason why I was so unhappy even when I know I got the job, the recruiter was surprised at my reaction, most people are excited and happy to get an offer in today's market, I was happy but sort of uncertain on whats to happen working for a guy like that.  He's definitely spoiled, he's got a strong and fun personality and likes things done his way, its either his way or the high way maybe.  He deducted my annual salary expectation by $500, can you believe it?  I wonder what he's trying to tell me.  Most people would've just given it to you, $500 is definitely not wanting to save money for the company, $5000 is more like saving money.  I feel like I was abused even before starting this job ...... so I stayed out of his way and kept up the distance this whole week to save myself some trouble ..... but I should still be thankful that he's willing to hire me .....      

I can't wait until Friday ......

my 2nd day in beverly hills

It's been awhile since having my own place again, and it feels so good, I miss my stuff, all my furnitures from Plano were shipped here and moved into my new apartment yesterday, so happy!  It feels a little funny living in beverly hills, so unexpected, and definitely not part of my plan for myself, the life style here is in between suburban oc and nyc.  I like the fact that everything is within 4 bldgs heights, it has a neighborhood feel, and there are restaurants and stores within walking distance.   

Just a little earlier, I walked dolly to beverly drive to get take out dinner, it was a lot of fun, and it feels different walking in beverly hills neighborhood.  The houses in the neighborhoods are old, but with character and cared for.  I bet the mood will be really really nice when the holiday comes, imagining houses with Christmas lights on them, and shops crowded with holiday shoppers. 

This afternoon I visited k-town to get groceries and was surprised to find k-town so big and dirty, totally different from the k-town in nyc, it was only 1 street long and 2 short blocks, sad.  There were korean letters on the bldgs everywhere, but I couldn't understand them, so dont even know what the stores are selling, I need a korean friend out here.  I found a department store though, it has alot of different stores inside and a big super market, just what I needed.  There were so many korean people, older korean folks drinking tea and having afternoon snacks, so thats what the korean grown olds do ... saw some younger korean fobs shopping, LA is packed with fobs, I miss them! 

I was looking for a Target to buy a trashcan and home supplies, and was surprised to realize that Target is no longer at my door steps, its actually far away, the closest one I found not in the ghetto was in west hollywood, all the way off la brea and santa monica blvd, and with only 1hr free parking.  I even drove passed by Pinks Hotdogs, I didnt used to drive to LA by myself when living in Irvine, and I couldnt believe that this is now my part of the neighborhood.  Im sort of getting used to the traffic out here and is able to tell the bad neighborhoods apart from the good ones.  When I first got here, I thought everything was bad, haha!  LA definitely feels like a big city, different from nyc, but with some similarities, especially the vibe people have out here is definitely urban and lots of gay.  My neighbor works as a PR for world poker championship tour and her bf took my parking spot the first night when I got here ..... I guess people work in unique professions in the city and they dont follow rules ......     

Currently Melinda and Melinda By Will Ferrell, Vinessa Shaw, Chiwetel Ejiofor, Jonny Lee Miller, Radha Mitchell see related

tennis

I went playing tennis with Joseph, my turkish tennis partner, and he showed up with a pink tennis raquet, but he assured me he didnt change his sex.  It was good seeing him, even after disconnecting for the past 2 1/2 yrs.  I feel Im reconnecting with all my old friends, it's a good thing.  He got hit with economic crisis and lost his job too, but recently got employeed by Prudential and is selling mutual funds, life insurance, and etc.  We played tennis at his apartment complex, Villa Siena off Jamboree, it was such a nice complex, it felt like an upscale resort, even more than Serranos, I couldn't believe Irvine Company made that place so nice inside, it was incredible, really felt like an oasis.  I guess we dont have to go to palm spring next time, just go to villa siena to get away. 

It was good to catch up with him while we play tennis, I felt bad for the neighbors because we were yelling across the court.  He's obviously been to alot of places and knew that he loved California especially Irvine.  Ive always lived in Irvine, so I didnt know what it was like out there, until I got out, and realized I was lucky to be raised here, the weather is unbeatable.  I was in NYC, it wasn't as it seem, it was different visiting vs living.  Its a very expensive place to live, you get very little space for your money, and the amenities of the city suck, everything costs money, sport is a huge luxury out there.  But it's very easy to make friends out there, you take public transportation everywhere, its very diverse, chinese food is awesome out there, bldgs are nice and artsy looking out there, you live as though you're in the movies except it looks ten times better in the movies .... but I wouldve stayed if I had found an ideal job out there, but I didnt, so it's sour grape talking ....  It's interesting how I got to know so much about myself, this world, geography, weather, and what I want after going away for a little bit.  It also helped me to understand why I made the decision to move to Texas for a little bit back then ..... 

Im a bit anxious about what's ahead of me, in November I'll start my new job, its exciting but at the same time nerve racking ..... It's about time that I go back to work, after being unemployed for 4 months, I'm so ready to go back to work again, cash is running out.  I need to get famaliar with the neighborhood, know where the markets are, take out places, library, coin laundry, bookstore, and etc .... where to make friends?  What kind of crowd will I encounter in LA?  I'm so glad I didn't sell my small white car .... or else I would have to walk to get my laundry done and not being able to come home to visit my family occasionally.